Hey!
So things just keep changing. I think the changes wouldn't seem so drastic if I wrote more often. Anyways! I ended the last post talking about my uncle passing away. So I figured I would start out by talking about where I am with that. I think I've finally allowed myself to grieve and heal with the help of the Holy Spirit. It was roughly a month ago when I realized that the "love" I thought I learned about my entire life was just another fairy tale, was the true unconditional love of our heavenly father that saved Ed. He never would have found the love of God if he didn't have to go through that trial. As heartbreaking and painful it was... It was only a season and he is now relaxing and pain free. Once I realized that God's love never left and is truly unconditional, I finally began to heal and realize that it's okay for it to hurt, it's okay to miss him. However, the key aspect to this, was that I thought I had to go through this alone since I wasn't with my mom, but I was never alone. God never left my side. The Holy Spirit was speaking for me when I couldn't find the words to say myself. Jesus is my advocate!
The newest thing, and biggest thing, I think has happened in my life recently would be the fact that I moved out of my parents house. So many things piled on top of another and I just couldn't take it there another day. So I'm now staying with Michelle until I move home in January. I plan to move back January 23rd. It's mid September now, so that gives me about 4 months. Which isn't very long at all. I'm going to miss Mosaic so so much, I can't even explain the words on how much I will miss that community and the constant encouragement to always find myself in Christ. I will deeply miss my small groups as well. Those girls have taught me so much. I know for a fact I wasn't to stay in touch with Mikayla. No matter what, even if it's just writing a letter once a month. Or even once every six months. I want to stay in her life and show her that someone can be consistent, that she is loved and cared for.
Children's ministry has been a complete game changer for me. It is one of my biggest passions and I know that I will (hopefully) be doing this for the rest of my life. I absolutely love the things that God has put into my life. Oh! I took my spiritual gifts test the other day and my top three gifts were evangelism, teaching, and mercy. So I found that to be pretty cool. My strengths are 1. Strategic 2. Achiever 3. Input 4. Learner 5. Connectedness. I always like learning new things about myself and this was pretty cool to learn. Overall, I am a strategic thinker. I found that interesting! It makes a lot of sense. I always like to have things planned out and I always look for the best possible ways of doing things and being more efficient. I liked to have plans.. It's kind of my thing.
So, I suddenly lost interest in blogging. Hopefully I'll write more tomorrow! Bye!
