Hey!
So things just keep changing. I think the changes wouldn't seem so drastic if I wrote more often. Anyways! I ended the last post talking about my uncle passing away. So I figured I would start out by talking about where I am with that. I think I've finally allowed myself to grieve and heal with the help of the Holy Spirit. It was roughly a month ago when I realized that the "love" I thought I learned about my entire life was just another fairy tale, was the true unconditional love of our heavenly father that saved Ed. He never would have found the love of God if he didn't have to go through that trial. As heartbreaking and painful it was... It was only a season and he is now relaxing and pain free. Once I realized that God's love never left and is truly unconditional, I finally began to heal and realize that it's okay for it to hurt, it's okay to miss him. However, the key aspect to this, was that I thought I had to go through this alone since I wasn't with my mom, but I was never alone. God never left my side. The Holy Spirit was speaking for me when I couldn't find the words to say myself. Jesus is my advocate!
The newest thing, and biggest thing, I think has happened in my life recently would be the fact that I moved out of my parents house. So many things piled on top of another and I just couldn't take it there another day. So I'm now staying with Michelle until I move home in January. I plan to move back January 23rd. It's mid September now, so that gives me about 4 months. Which isn't very long at all. I'm going to miss Mosaic so so much, I can't even explain the words on how much I will miss that community and the constant encouragement to always find myself in Christ. I will deeply miss my small groups as well. Those girls have taught me so much. I know for a fact I wasn't to stay in touch with Mikayla. No matter what, even if it's just writing a letter once a month. Or even once every six months. I want to stay in her life and show her that someone can be consistent, that she is loved and cared for.
Children's ministry has been a complete game changer for me. It is one of my biggest passions and I know that I will (hopefully) be doing this for the rest of my life. I absolutely love the things that God has put into my life. Oh! I took my spiritual gifts test the other day and my top three gifts were evangelism, teaching, and mercy. So I found that to be pretty cool. My strengths are 1. Strategic 2. Achiever 3. Input 4. Learner 5. Connectedness. I always like learning new things about myself and this was pretty cool to learn. Overall, I am a strategic thinker. I found that interesting! It makes a lot of sense. I always like to have things planned out and I always look for the best possible ways of doing things and being more efficient. I liked to have plans.. It's kind of my thing.
So, I suddenly lost interest in blogging. Hopefully I'll write more tomorrow! Bye!
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
On To New Things!
Hi there,
So once again things have changed since I last posted. God is working so many things in my life and I cannot believe everything that is happening! One huge thing is that I got a full time job at Gold's Gym! Everything is being finalized and I'm finishing up paperwork this upcoming week! I'm so very excited to be working in a gym. So everything that I will be doing will be involving Children's Ministry and health/fitness! God really does make dreams come true!
In Kid City things are going absolutely amazing! I have connected with these girls on a whole new level! They really trust me and look up to me! It's so amazing to have the opportunity to lead these girls through their life and really get to know them. Also, I was sent to serve in Kid City at a different campus that our church planted. Mosaic is doing amazing things and I have the amazing privilege to be a part of it! This internship is bringing so many blessings that I couldn't have even expected or hoped for! I have no doubt in my mind that God brought me to Florida to work with these children. To have His calling on my life finally be found. My eyes are being opened up to so many amazing things. God has truly blessed me.
Things have definitely been tight money wise, but this new job will definitely change things. This job is truly a gift from God and I cannot wait to start as soon as I get back from NC! I leave for NC on Thursday! So so excited! Now onto something serious...
When my uncle was taken into heaven on May 26th 2014 everything changed. My life changed. He was one of the best people I ever had the privilege of getting to meet and have inspire me through out life. He brought so much wisdom into my life and pushed me to be so much bigger then I am. He never criticized me, only believed in me to do better. He never looked down on me when I messed up.. He was seriously such an amazing person and I know my mom misses him so much as well. No matter what I know he will always be with me and looking down on me. I will make him proud! I'm writing a book in his honor. He is so amazing... I couldn't ask for a better father figure in my life.
I do understand that he isn't my father. But growing up and not meeting your biological father until you're 7 leaves a gap in your life. Edward Carl Beck stepped up to the plate. He took me in as his own and truly adopted me into the family. He isn't my biological uncle, but he is closer to me then my family.. However, that is a story for another day. I went kind of crazy with food and I didn't work out for a month... I'm back on track now. But I was really upset. God lifted me out of it.. I was honestly so mad at God... I still don't understand everything and I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE HAD CANCER FOR 8 YEARS AND GOD COULDN'T TAKE 1 SECOND TO JUST HEAL HIM!!!!!! Yes, I'm clearly still upset and don't understand. But... I'm okay. God knows what He is doing. He ordained this... Ed was in pain. It was a long road of struggle and pain and I'm so happy He's with Jesus now... But I miss him so much... So so much. I have a photo album with some pictures of him from like 2 years old and up. I love it so much! I get to take a step back and look at the amazing life that he lived. Not only did he inspire me, but I know for a fact that he inspired so many more people. God has truly blessed me with some amazing people... I'm just happy he was a believer and is home with Jesus <3
Farewell,
Miss Elizabeth!
So once again things have changed since I last posted. God is working so many things in my life and I cannot believe everything that is happening! One huge thing is that I got a full time job at Gold's Gym! Everything is being finalized and I'm finishing up paperwork this upcoming week! I'm so very excited to be working in a gym. So everything that I will be doing will be involving Children's Ministry and health/fitness! God really does make dreams come true!
In Kid City things are going absolutely amazing! I have connected with these girls on a whole new level! They really trust me and look up to me! It's so amazing to have the opportunity to lead these girls through their life and really get to know them. Also, I was sent to serve in Kid City at a different campus that our church planted. Mosaic is doing amazing things and I have the amazing privilege to be a part of it! This internship is bringing so many blessings that I couldn't have even expected or hoped for! I have no doubt in my mind that God brought me to Florida to work with these children. To have His calling on my life finally be found. My eyes are being opened up to so many amazing things. God has truly blessed me.
Things have definitely been tight money wise, but this new job will definitely change things. This job is truly a gift from God and I cannot wait to start as soon as I get back from NC! I leave for NC on Thursday! So so excited! Now onto something serious...
When my uncle was taken into heaven on May 26th 2014 everything changed. My life changed. He was one of the best people I ever had the privilege of getting to meet and have inspire me through out life. He brought so much wisdom into my life and pushed me to be so much bigger then I am. He never criticized me, only believed in me to do better. He never looked down on me when I messed up.. He was seriously such an amazing person and I know my mom misses him so much as well. No matter what I know he will always be with me and looking down on me. I will make him proud! I'm writing a book in his honor. He is so amazing... I couldn't ask for a better father figure in my life.
I do understand that he isn't my father. But growing up and not meeting your biological father until you're 7 leaves a gap in your life. Edward Carl Beck stepped up to the plate. He took me in as his own and truly adopted me into the family. He isn't my biological uncle, but he is closer to me then my family.. However, that is a story for another day. I went kind of crazy with food and I didn't work out for a month... I'm back on track now. But I was really upset. God lifted me out of it.. I was honestly so mad at God... I still don't understand everything and I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY HE HAD CANCER FOR 8 YEARS AND GOD COULDN'T TAKE 1 SECOND TO JUST HEAL HIM!!!!!! Yes, I'm clearly still upset and don't understand. But... I'm okay. God knows what He is doing. He ordained this... Ed was in pain. It was a long road of struggle and pain and I'm so happy He's with Jesus now... But I miss him so much... So so much. I have a photo album with some pictures of him from like 2 years old and up. I love it so much! I get to take a step back and look at the amazing life that he lived. Not only did he inspire me, but I know for a fact that he inspired so many more people. God has truly blessed me with some amazing people... I'm just happy he was a believer and is home with Jesus <3
Farewell,
Miss Elizabeth!
Friday, May 23, 2014
New things!
Hey!
So things have switched up since I last blogged! I'm in a missional community! & it is absolutely fantastic! I love it so much! I have also started a little bible study. I wasn't planning to because I felt God leading maybe, else where. But apparently not. It's only 5 of us. Which I'm okay with. We're just digging into Jesus' life and who He really is. I'm so in love with this! Kid's ministry is going fantastic as well! As part of my internship I have to venture to all ages of the ministry and not just Early Childhood. I was so nervous at first. However, I love Kid City! Kid City has ages from K-5th. I've worked with k-1 small group and 2-3 which one time that small group had like 12-15 girls ranging from 2-5. I love my group and I'm so blessed. God is bringing so much light into my heart through this small group and I'm so happy. I never knew that this would happen but I'm so happy with where this is leading, wherever this is leading. So many things are going on! My step mom thinks that I'm over doing it... My plate that is. I don't think I am. However, I guess I shall find out.
Today was actually pretty sucky. I had a great conversation with my mom though. Also, July 29th I am seeing Gavin DeGraw! Ahh! Tuesday I'm going to the beach! Goodness I'm so exited! This upcoming week will be great! I get to pour into on of my friends that I've lost connection with because our lives are just different.... She would be considered a "secular" friend. I guess that would be the right word. She's such a great person though! She's coming to church with me on Sunday! :) I'm trying to truly stay focused on above and just praise Jesus for what I do have, and not focus on how things are going wrong... Like today. Pretty much everything about today was just crap. today equals crap.... But Tomorrow is a new day full of new blessings and God's love... AND KID CITY! Oh and I finally have best friend here! So happy!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
So things have switched up since I last blogged! I'm in a missional community! & it is absolutely fantastic! I love it so much! I have also started a little bible study. I wasn't planning to because I felt God leading maybe, else where. But apparently not. It's only 5 of us. Which I'm okay with. We're just digging into Jesus' life and who He really is. I'm so in love with this! Kid's ministry is going fantastic as well! As part of my internship I have to venture to all ages of the ministry and not just Early Childhood. I was so nervous at first. However, I love Kid City! Kid City has ages from K-5th. I've worked with k-1 small group and 2-3 which one time that small group had like 12-15 girls ranging from 2-5. I love my group and I'm so blessed. God is bringing so much light into my heart through this small group and I'm so happy. I never knew that this would happen but I'm so happy with where this is leading, wherever this is leading. So many things are going on! My step mom thinks that I'm over doing it... My plate that is. I don't think I am. However, I guess I shall find out.
Today was actually pretty sucky. I had a great conversation with my mom though. Also, July 29th I am seeing Gavin DeGraw! Ahh! Tuesday I'm going to the beach! Goodness I'm so exited! This upcoming week will be great! I get to pour into on of my friends that I've lost connection with because our lives are just different.... She would be considered a "secular" friend. I guess that would be the right word. She's such a great person though! She's coming to church with me on Sunday! :) I'm trying to truly stay focused on above and just praise Jesus for what I do have, and not focus on how things are going wrong... Like today. Pretty much everything about today was just crap. today equals crap.... But Tomorrow is a new day full of new blessings and God's love... AND KID CITY! Oh and I finally have best friend here! So happy!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Update on the Bible Study!
Ahhh,
So I'm super excited! I talked to some of the leader's at the church and they are all behind me with going foreword with my bible study! I have a room at the church! I can't wait to help minister to these women! God has really put this on my heart. The more I think about it the more I get excited. I'm nervous, but in a good way! I want this group to grow and to become more then just a missional community, but a family. Girls that we're comfortable around and don't have to hide things. One thing I have to go out and buy though, is the NIV bible. I own The Message, but majority of people at my church read the NIV or ESV. So I'm going to go purchase an NIV just so it'll be easier to relate with to the other women. I can't even believe God is calling me to something like this. I never knew I could do anything like this. I'm just so excited!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
So I'm super excited! I talked to some of the leader's at the church and they are all behind me with going foreword with my bible study! I have a room at the church! I can't wait to help minister to these women! God has really put this on my heart. The more I think about it the more I get excited. I'm nervous, but in a good way! I want this group to grow and to become more then just a missional community, but a family. Girls that we're comfortable around and don't have to hide things. One thing I have to go out and buy though, is the NIV bible. I own The Message, but majority of people at my church read the NIV or ESV. So I'm going to go purchase an NIV just so it'll be easier to relate with to the other women. I can't even believe God is calling me to something like this. I never knew I could do anything like this. I'm just so excited!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Sunday, April 6, 2014
So many think running through my mind!
Guys! Guys! Guys!
So, God has been putting on my heart for the last few weeks to be bold & to stand out. Well, for the past 3 weeks I have been feeling lead to start a bible studding but didn't really know if it was possible or how to go about it and such. So yesterday with some amazing friends, I came up with a plan. We picked the day of the week, the time, and when would be a good start day. I'm so excited where God is leading me and taking my heart. I am really feeling lead to do this! I want so many things for the this group! I want us to make a difference in our community and to feel one as a group. My laptop is about to die though so I'll update you more later!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
So, God has been putting on my heart for the last few weeks to be bold & to stand out. Well, for the past 3 weeks I have been feeling lead to start a bible studding but didn't really know if it was possible or how to go about it and such. So yesterday with some amazing friends, I came up with a plan. We picked the day of the week, the time, and when would be a good start day. I'm so excited where God is leading me and taking my heart. I am really feeling lead to do this! I want so many things for the this group! I want us to make a difference in our community and to feel one as a group. My laptop is about to die though so I'll update you more later!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Friday, April 4, 2014
Just another day!
So,
A lot has been going on this week as my last semester in my freshman year (of college) is coming to a close. Mainly tests and so much information to take in for things teacher's are trying to cram in our minds before it's too late. Crazy! Anyways, work has been productive as well, but I feel like I'm not quick enough yet and I don't want to let anyone down... Ugh. Mixed emotions.
My shin splint is healing. I was able to run half a mile before my leg quit. Which is better then before when I couldn't run at all. I was supposed to have my car fixed today, spark plugs put in and a radiator flush... But the guy canceled cause something came up with other cars. I understand and everything but it stinks. I want this done and over with. I've procrastinated too long to getting this done and now it's being put off even more..
On a good note though, less then 2 weeks till I see my gorgeous mama! She means the absolute world to me and I can't wait to see her! When I first moved away I was excited to be able to just get away, but now more then anything I want to move back and just be like "Love me and make me feel like a kid again!" It really is hard not having my mom right next to me. My dad doesn't seem to understand that but honestly I don't even care. She's my rock. <-- Other than God of course! <3
Love,
Miss Elizabeth! <3
A lot has been going on this week as my last semester in my freshman year (of college) is coming to a close. Mainly tests and so much information to take in for things teacher's are trying to cram in our minds before it's too late. Crazy! Anyways, work has been productive as well, but I feel like I'm not quick enough yet and I don't want to let anyone down... Ugh. Mixed emotions.
My shin splint is healing. I was able to run half a mile before my leg quit. Which is better then before when I couldn't run at all. I was supposed to have my car fixed today, spark plugs put in and a radiator flush... But the guy canceled cause something came up with other cars. I understand and everything but it stinks. I want this done and over with. I've procrastinated too long to getting this done and now it's being put off even more..
On a good note though, less then 2 weeks till I see my gorgeous mama! She means the absolute world to me and I can't wait to see her! When I first moved away I was excited to be able to just get away, but now more then anything I want to move back and just be like "Love me and make me feel like a kid again!" It really is hard not having my mom right next to me. My dad doesn't seem to understand that but honestly I don't even care. She's my rock. <-- Other than God of course! <3
Love,
Miss Elizabeth! <3
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Life.
Hey there,
So life has thrown me a low blow. I have a health blog as well where I mainly talk about health and fitness and such but this kills me so I have to share.. I have a shin splint and can't run. I love running and now my stress reliever is currently taken away from me. I know I push myself more then I should... But it's because I love running not because of unhealthy reasons...
Other then that things are going well. Got a lot accomplished today at church (for the internship.) Everything is ready for this weekend! So excited... I kind of have an eye on Johnathan... Maybe. Ugh I'm leaving.
Yeah,
Miss Elizabeth <3
So life has thrown me a low blow. I have a health blog as well where I mainly talk about health and fitness and such but this kills me so I have to share.. I have a shin splint and can't run. I love running and now my stress reliever is currently taken away from me. I know I push myself more then I should... But it's because I love running not because of unhealthy reasons...
Other then that things are going well. Got a lot accomplished today at church (for the internship.) Everything is ready for this weekend! So excited... I kind of have an eye on Johnathan... Maybe. Ugh I'm leaving.
Yeah,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Sunday, March 30, 2014
So Very Excited!
Hey guys!
So I'm super excited right now! I've felt convicted to rededicate my life to Christ lately (over the last 2 months) and this weekend I officially signed up for it! I'm going to get baptized and I'm so excited! My mentor at church is going to baptize me! Caton is such an amazing person and woman of God! I'm so blessed to have someone like her in my life to help guide me. I just can't believe how much God has changed my heart over the last year. My life is all about Him and I absolutely love it!
Also I've felt convicted to be bold and to get out there among the people and not be scared. To just go and help recruit some volunteers for our Children's Ministry. Not even just with that but to just be bold and not hide in my shell. When I first moved here that's all I did. I hid in my shell and didn't really peek out for anything. If I went to any social events I would still be in my shell and I would keep to myself. I feel God leading me to do more and to step out of my shell. I can do this, He is my backbone and I can do all things through Him. I know this sounds cliché... But I love Jesus so much. I want praise His name every single day. No exaggeration at all. I worship Him so much just because I long to praise Him. Jesus has changed my life and every time I learn more about Him and who He is I fall even more in love. Crazy!
On another note, everything else is going well. Going to go get my license tomorrow if all goes well. They may not be open. I'm not sure. I got most of my homework done! All I have left is a paper... It's due Tuesday. So I have tomorrow night and some of Tuesday to get it done! Not to worried, it only needs to be 1,000 words which isn't much at all. I'm quite good at writing. Also I've slacked on my chores a bit... I got my laundry done.. but not my bathroom or vacuuming. Shame on me. That has to be done tomorrow also or dad is going to upset. No need for that!
I go to NC in 3 weeks and I'm SO excited! Like so so so excited! I can't wait to see my mommy! I miss her dearly! I'm hoping I'll be able to see my uncle... I'm hoping that he is still holding on when I arrive.. He's fighting a terminal illness and is in the last few weeks.. or month. That's my whole reason for the trip. Bless his heart... I love him so much. I'm really worried though. He was telling my mom that he was just ready to go and to pass away because he was tired of fighting and wasn't strong enough anymore. I want him to be happy and comfortable. If that means leaving before I see him that's okay... I just want him painless. He's been fighting cancer for 8 years now.. He's fought long enough.
Well that's enough writing for one night! That's the things on my heart! If you read this, please pray for my leg.. I got injured while running last week and need a quick healing so I can get back to working out!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
So I'm super excited right now! I've felt convicted to rededicate my life to Christ lately (over the last 2 months) and this weekend I officially signed up for it! I'm going to get baptized and I'm so excited! My mentor at church is going to baptize me! Caton is such an amazing person and woman of God! I'm so blessed to have someone like her in my life to help guide me. I just can't believe how much God has changed my heart over the last year. My life is all about Him and I absolutely love it!
Also I've felt convicted to be bold and to get out there among the people and not be scared. To just go and help recruit some volunteers for our Children's Ministry. Not even just with that but to just be bold and not hide in my shell. When I first moved here that's all I did. I hid in my shell and didn't really peek out for anything. If I went to any social events I would still be in my shell and I would keep to myself. I feel God leading me to do more and to step out of my shell. I can do this, He is my backbone and I can do all things through Him. I know this sounds cliché... But I love Jesus so much. I want praise His name every single day. No exaggeration at all. I worship Him so much just because I long to praise Him. Jesus has changed my life and every time I learn more about Him and who He is I fall even more in love. Crazy!
On another note, everything else is going well. Going to go get my license tomorrow if all goes well. They may not be open. I'm not sure. I got most of my homework done! All I have left is a paper... It's due Tuesday. So I have tomorrow night and some of Tuesday to get it done! Not to worried, it only needs to be 1,000 words which isn't much at all. I'm quite good at writing. Also I've slacked on my chores a bit... I got my laundry done.. but not my bathroom or vacuuming. Shame on me. That has to be done tomorrow also or dad is going to upset. No need for that!
I go to NC in 3 weeks and I'm SO excited! Like so so so excited! I can't wait to see my mommy! I miss her dearly! I'm hoping I'll be able to see my uncle... I'm hoping that he is still holding on when I arrive.. He's fighting a terminal illness and is in the last few weeks.. or month. That's my whole reason for the trip. Bless his heart... I love him so much. I'm really worried though. He was telling my mom that he was just ready to go and to pass away because he was tired of fighting and wasn't strong enough anymore. I want him to be happy and comfortable. If that means leaving before I see him that's okay... I just want him painless. He's been fighting cancer for 8 years now.. He's fought long enough.
Well that's enough writing for one night! That's the things on my heart! If you read this, please pray for my leg.. I got injured while running last week and need a quick healing so I can get back to working out!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Thursday, March 27, 2014
03-27-2014
Well,
Not much happened today! I kept myself quite busy though! I went and checked out the car I want at the Ford dealership. I won't be getting it for another 6 motnhs, but hey, doesn't hurt to look! I also cleaned my current car. He definitely needed it. Yes, it's a he. It's a giant green Chevy Blazer and I named him the Hulk. Anyways lol I also found out that my car needs the radiator flushed. Which is like 90 bucks! Completely insane! I'll never be able to save up for the new car as long as this car is sucking up all my money! PSY Class went well. This teacher is a hoot! Night classes are always the most entertaining in my opinion. I always have the wakiest teachers! Overall today went good. Well. I'm gunna go!
Love,
Miss Elizabeth <3
Wednesday, March 26, 2014
03-26-2014
Hey there,
So this is my new blog! I'm so excited! I also write in a physical journal! However, I'm pretty excited to have a journal online. I enjoy typing a little bit more! So anywho!
A lot has happened lately! I moved from NC to FL almost a year ago (May 2013) and up in NC every year you need to have an inspection done on your car to get your tag and such renewed... Well, turns out there is no way for me to get my inspection down here and because of circumstances I am not able to drive up there and get it. So now I have to register my car here and get all this stuff done that is going to probably take all of my savings and I'm stressing a little bit. This is just the iceberg. However, I don't want to rant at all!
I can't even explain how blessed I am. God has blessed me with so many things, including an internship teaching His children and just stepping out of the box and becoming the woman of God that He wants me to be. He is shaping me every single day and I love Him so very much and I can't even explain it. I literally want to worship His glorious name every single day and just shout His praise! So many things are chaos right now but I haven't been this happy in a very long time. He gives me this inner peace that just makes going through life so much easier and better. God is still working in my heart though. I have felt convicted lately to help get people to join the ministries. To join our amazing team and just like... I don't know. He's encouraging me to be bold and just do works all for His name. I'm nervous tough, like I don't know how to go about that. I'm not bold when it comes to people. I'm bold and confident in my friend groups most of the time... But not in people. Like... It's a big step. But really any step God asks me to do seems big. But I know that God is leading me to bigger things and I can't help but want to follow Him and His guidance. I don't want to not follow Him. I'm just nervous. I guess I'll always be nervous though. I just need to step up... Yeah. I need to do that.
I need to follow God no matter what I want to do. He is my life and the one I follow. So I need to suck in up and do it! God will guide me <3
Love,
Miss Elizabeth!
Subscribe to:
Comments (Atom)